Life can get in the way of living..

I found this today. Wrote it back in March... just figured I'd post it, as it's still fitting.

I've come to the realization that the things I've longed for for years now, are the very things other people tried to convince me I didn't want. I used to be completely satisfied with the person I was, the life I had, the choices I was making, and the people accompanying me in my journey through the unknown, day by day experience that is life. No one understood me or my ways, why I loved who or what I loved, and why I lived my life the way I did. I never did anything incredibly strange - I was just simple. I enjoyed the simplicities of every day, I purposely spent as much time with my family as possible and wanted every minute of that time, I didn't go out or party, or do much but just BE. I didn't have huge plans for life - just to be happy... not that I didn't have goals, because I did; but I knew I could do it - whatever "it" was. I never felt like I fit in, but I knew that was only because I was different than most. I just learned from watching others live their way but still preferred mine. Long story short, life got in the way of things... I got lost, confused, alone. And several people convinced me I needed to change - be more like them. No one my age spent so much time with their family, they went out, they moved away, they did this & they did that.. etc, etc. I became desperate for a change because I was so confused and began to listen to all these "recommendations" as to how to live; the "right" way. As a result of that, I've lost touch with myself, WHO I am (or was) and over the past couple years, due to a combination of life's circumstances and "advice" from others causing me to forget my own ways, I've become bitter, bitchy, boring and regretful. These very same people who steered me in this "direction" now say they miss who I once was. I'm not trying to blame anyone. Obviously I am in full control of who and what I am. I just had weak moments and turned the wrong way to find help. It's my fault. In the recent years and months I've learned one must let life be what it be, and accept what made you who you are, and never run from where your roots are planted because they follow you everywhere anyway. Life is better spent indulging in what the world has to offer than running from yourself or towards what you think you want life to be.. and most people seem to try to ignore that.

Be who you are, where you are, and remember where you came from... that doesn't mean forget where you want to go, just enjoy the way there.